"Put a gun in my mouth": Machine Gun Kelly opens up about depression

In the documentary "Machine Gun Kelly's Life in Pink", the US musician gives deep insights into his innermost being and reports on a particularly "dark" moment in his life.

"Put a gun in my mouth": Machine Gun Kelly opens up about depression

In the documentary "Machine Gun Kelly's Life in Pink", the US musician gives deep insights into his innermost being and reports on a particularly "dark" moment in his life. After that, his fiancee Megan Fox became the "sun" for him.

The Hulu documentary "Machine Gun Kelly's Life in Pink" tells about the life and career of US musician Machine Gun Kelly. Among other things, it is about a dark night in July 2020, shortly after his father died. The tragic loss caused Colson Baker - his birth name - to slide deeper into depression and substance abuse.

"I didn't want to leave my (hotel) room anymore," he says in a clip from the film that "Entertainment Tonight" shows. "I was starting to get really, really, really dark," the musician continued. This apparently also had to do with the fact that his girlfriend, US actress Megan Fox, was not with him. "Megan went to Bulgaria to do a movie and I got this really wild paranoia. I was getting more and more paranoid that someone was going to come and kill me," according to MGK, as the musician is known for short. During this time he slept with a shotgun next to his bed.

During a phone call, the situation escalated almost completely. "I called Megan. I said, 'You're not here for me.' I was in my room freaking out in front of her," MGK describes the moment. "Dude, I put the shotgun in my mouth." He screamed on the phone and had the barrel in his mouth. But when he tried to pull the trigger, the ammunition jammed. Megan was "dead quiet".

In the film, the 32-year-old explains that that moment made him realize he needed to end his substance abuse, both for Fox and his 12-year-old daughter Casie. "I want to be able to look into your eyes, I don't want to speak to you anymore as if through a veil," the two most important women in his life said to him. "I was like, 'This time I really need to get off drugs,'" he says, although according to Entertainment Tonight, the film doesn't mention whether he was on drugs during the incident.

After that night, MGK explains further, Fox became "the sun" for him. The passion between him and his fiancée, who is four years his senior, is "simply unearthly". He was sure that he had already "known her in so many other lives". In June 2020 it was announced that Machine Gun Kelly and mother of three Megan Fox are a couple. In January he proposed to her.