For me, Pablo Escobar was the enchanted prince. I was their victim and not the accomplice who shows 'Narcos'At what point he discovered that the prince was a criminal?From the death of the minister of Justice Lara Bonilla is when my life changed forever. She was pregnant eight and a half months of my second daughter and it was a before and an after. I realized that things would never be what I had dreamed of.And why he kept going?For the sake of my children and my own life. I had and still have a responsibility to my children for having brought to this world and this life. They have paid a terrible price for being born in this home and it is a conversation that I have pending with them. I am horrified of the life that they lived by our fault and only now I've noticed. During the madness that we had to live on, and I stopped thinking about it. And I owe them an apology.Have you seen 'Narcos'?Very little because it connects me with violence again, and I suffered so much that I try to keep the distance of that. But I have seen parts because I can't be blind to the reality in which we live, and there are plenty of inaccuracies to portray me. Show Me a person who I am not and that is another of the reasons why I decided to write this book. It has been said of all of me and I wanted to be able to give my version. Then, people can evaluate it, but at least know the truth. The series shows me as an accomplice of Pablo Escobar and was, mostly, another victim. I was never an accomplice of my husband. What I loved a lot within my innocence, but I was completely far removed from your reality. The only thing that I did all the times that I could is cuestionarle, but I never answered nor ignored me. What series and movies are banalizando the drug trafficking and the figure of Escobar?Yes, the series has been irresponsible frivolizando with this topic. That's why I wanted to show the reality of this terrible story that doesn't repeat. We have lived in an absolute hell. I am 58 years old and I wear 40 in a permanent challenge to survive. Until the moments of well-being were painful and lonely. It didn't make sense. In the book faces another very exploited in films and tv shows: the lovers of Escobar...it Is a very painful. No woman should be treated so, it was violence to your feelings, your dignity... it Was very sad and still hurts me. I was exposing to journal my life and the lives of my children, was the target of that war, and yet his life was full of other women. It was a double violence: as a couple and as a family. Paul took advantage of his power to live in two worlds: one with his wife and their children and the other with her money and other women, in many cases, used as weapons in their war. I ended up in a submission all without realizing it. How could I handle so many people at the same time? What charisma, fear, or money?All together. Drove to all the world. He was a man very charismatic, he was a hero to many people. Somehow, we had to all those who, in one way or another, he wanted to. For me, writing this book has destroyed the myth of Paul.How he came to believe that it was that hero?It is believed. He always talked about it: helping, people, of his people... he Was a guy that the money will not obsessed over. Was never ostentatious. Even the best brands, or the best watches. Always saw himself as a benefactor who helped people: bought houses to the poor, helped to operate the sick... it Was two people in one. It is a madness. Now I'm analyzing with neuroscientists in his mind to try to understand his brain killer and terrorist. I remember those moments and I get chills. I don't know if Paul was of this world without realizing what I had done, because the madness is so. An addict to the process you drag and does an amount of damage that can't even begin to imagine.Does it match with his son in that Paul did not die as has been told?Yes. To Paul it was not murdered, he committed suicide. An hour before his death he said goodbye to us. He always told us that the phone was death, and yet, that day used it non-stop. He did it to attract those who were going to kill, to locate and finish off with that. I think that there could be more, that was too much pain. He realized that to us every time we were near more the death for their guilt and to die was his way of saving.What truth there was no money who had an empire?A portion of the money handed in the peace negotiations that I had with the cartels, because of the death of Paul he remained in the us. But, thank God, we were able to reach an agreement after nearly a year negotiating to go live in the country. So they were a good part of the fortune, and the rest, the colombian State which confiscated all goods.How many times have you dreamed of taking a different decision 13 years ago?A lot. I regret very loud and very late. But, as the human being learns from what others do before them, invite the young people to listen to the parents and look at each step very well, that will give, because at that age you have an unconscious absolute. My parents did everything possible to avoid my relationship with Paul and they didn't make it through my unconsciousness. I fell in love with blindly and estropeé my life.Do you live with fear?Yes, I have not experienced is never quiet since I met Paul. I do many personal processes to overcome this. I meditate and read philosophy to be able to exist. It is very complicated to get up all the days in the focus of all the authorities of the world. To see what you do, where you're going... But it is what touched me and will be so until the grave.
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